May 2012
230 posts
I'm starting...
To think life is just way too complicated right now. I have to pay for my mistakes and then a million dollars more. It’s like I’ll always be in debt because I was always fucking up. Now as an adult I have to pay for childish fucking mistakes.
I’ve kept it together these past weeks and for some reason I can’t find a minute to just breath.
I can’t control my emotions...
April 2012
124 posts
decided.
not talking to him.
distract me!
who knows...
maybe its not worth trying. i mean i tried to talk to him today and he tells me he doesnt feel like talking. fuck it then…we just need complete space from each other. it might be hard…but i guess it has to happen. it would probably be the best for us.
or maybe it we just shouldn’t try at all…maybe this should just be it. maybe we should both just say fuck it…maybe we...
this is gay.
fuck this.
im leaving.
gunna go on a hike.
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Day one.
Without you.
Lets go.
Fuck.
More and more as I lay here…I realize that he didn’t care at all. I really thought he was it. but I guess I was wrong. Now I have to carry around this daily reminder of wat we didn’t really have…love. I guess I just stayed too long. I was tired of it a much a he was…
I’m tired. So fucking tired. Maybe the decisions I have made in my life led up to this…I...
Wait!...
Let me just make it clear…while me and him were together he was taking to his ex. Dirty ass conversations. Telling her how beautiful she was and how it’s do hard for him to find a girl because she was just so amazing. He also had no problem sending her a picture of some girls boobs…thinking they were hers because he has such a vivid memory of her. I’m sure he still loves...
Single.
But after that I dont think I want a boy…i’m gunna have fun while i’m young. Obviously a committed relationship wasn’t the right thing for either of us. Oh well…you some you lose some.
Now he is free to be with her…which i’m sure he can’t wait for. ((;
And now I can be with someone that will actually give me some fucking donuts and milk. Hell...
Thoughts at 1am
I hate to think that the link I gave my boyfriend was probably being used…but I guess I have to expect it when hes in love with someone else. Shit happens. I’m still mad. Since I think his story was bullshit.
Ehh…no need to continue that…
My delusional boyfriend thinks he is more loyal than me. Unfortunately, he cussed me out while saying that…so obviously someone...
